Growing Up.

Wow. Nearly 2 months since I've been in LA and I start missing home. I miss the tropical weather, I miss the food, I miss my family, I miss my friends there... I miss so many things, but I feel happier than back at home in Singapore.

No one to take care of my daily needs, I have to do things on my own. Make my own decisions. Spend my own money... scratch that, not mine but money from DBS bank - even though I'll need to pay them back anyway... LOL.

Makes me dream to travel around the world by myself. Just like my friend Amanda. I realize I like the thrill of travelling alone by myself. And I feel all the more comfortable by myself than with people. Yet I yearn for companionship. Such contradictory thoughts and feelings.

But I feel like I am growing up. And slimming down too. How long will I keep a slimmer figure though? Who knows.

If there's one weakness I urgently need to overcome now. It would be my social awkwardness. And tactfulness in dealing with people. I am as innocent as a blank paper would suggest but can also be as hypocritical as a white cover.

Someone pointed out to me once that I am too tough on myself, but if I am not, I will just be wasting my life away. I need to beat myself down so as to spring up higher than before. And I believe I am just waiting. Waiting for a time to break the barrier I cover myself with and spring higher than anyone below me.

I want to soar above the clouds. To infinity and beyond!!!

Never felt this good!

And nervous at the same time...

Going to LA, CA now and will see new things, meet new people, experience new stuff!

And go to Anime Expo :)

YAY. CALIFORNIA, LOS ANGELES, AMALGAM PEEPS. HERE I COME!

YLCourt: 太美的一段话，不舍得丢弃。

YLCourt: 死亡时刻
YLCourt: 太美的一段话，不舍得丢弃。

太美的一段话，不舍得丢弃。

夜深人静的时刻，
想的都是反面想法，
不知何时心跳就有可能停止，
变换就在一瞬间。

无法承受乱想的压力时，
幻想拿着刀子或是抢狂扫无辜人群就是疯狂的象征。

头好晕、
心好乱。

感觉就是我已垮，
没人能帮我也没人会可怜一个疯狂，
放弃的人了！

我怪人不怪己，
就是该死。

生命无尽头，
完了就不见。

死亡时刻

死亡挂在嘴边就是令人讨厌，
但当我们无法承受我们自己所认为的痛苦，
死亡变成脑里的口头禅，
时刻出现在脑海里，
死亡也成为逃避的方法。

可能幸好一个人不敢杀死自己，
所以她才不会自杀，
但是一旦在夜深人静的时候，
她想入非非，
高楼一跳或手腕一割，
一命呜呼就是死亡时刻。

YLCourt

I tend to view myself with two personalities.
so many times so that i also tend to lose myself in my multiple personalities in god knows what time....
that's just me.

I'm back for the xth time!

Hai hai! I wish to blog as often as I tweet!

But if you're reading this blog, I'm doing well though I seriously think I should invest more time here as fewer ppl read this blog and I can pour out my woes here =)

Thanks for sticking with me then!

Cheers,
Cat!