Wow. Nearly 2 months since I've been in LA and I start missing home. I miss the tropical weather, I miss the food, I miss my family, I miss my friends there... I miss so many things, but I feel happier than back at home in Singapore.
No one to take care of my daily needs, I have to do things on my own. Make my own decisions. Spend my own money... scratch that, not mine but money from DBS bank - even though I'll need to pay them back anyway... LOL.
Makes me dream to travel around the world by myself. Just like my friend Amanda. I realize I like the thrill of travelling alone by myself. And I feel all the more comfortable by myself than with people. Yet I yearn for companionship. Such contradictory thoughts and feelings.
But I feel like I am growing up. And slimming down too. How long will I keep a slimmer figure though? Who knows.
If there's one weakness I urgently need to overcome now. It would be my social awkwardness. And tactfulness in dealing with people. I am as innocent as a blank paper would suggest but can also be as hypocritical as a white cover.
Someone pointed out to me once that I am too tough on myself, but if I am not, I will just be wasting my life away. I need to beat myself down so as to spring up higher than before. And I believe I am just waiting. Waiting for a time to break the barrier I cover myself with and spring higher than anyone below me.
I want to soar above the clouds. To infinity and beyond!!!
